22 November 2010

"Rainy days and Mondays always get me down"

I'm faced with a fork in the road situation.  Lately, I've been putting off photography. You can probably tell because of the lack of photo posts, and even when I'm posting a photo it's an older one.  Nothing new.  My life is consumed by school and writing term papers. I've been looking at photography websites, new cameras, and I swear Amazon will be the death of my bank account.  I am looking into the future with my next semester class schedule and I fear that I'm going to postpone more photo opportunities.  I feel like I'm going to have to make a choice soon or figure out an awesome balancing schedule for the both.  I can't motivate myself in my schoolwork because I have no creative outlet so I just end up sitting watching television series on Netflix.  It's a losing battle. I hope I can find a balance soon.


One more thing. I had posted about having weird dreams a few posts back.  How I would wake up and still see images of my dreams in my bedroom.  I did some research last night because it keeps happening and I think I have a condition called Sleep Paralysis.  It's something like where you sleep, you can regain a sense of reality and images project from your dreams, but you can't move or do anything about it.  So how I feel like I'm laying in bed, eyes open, and seeing piles of dead deer in my room (that was a weird dream), but unable to move for like the first 2 minutes or so would be considered sleep paralysis....I think.  I'll have to make a doctor's appointment.  They'll probably think I'm crazy, because of the dream situations I'll have to explain.  

Anyway, I'm off to hide myself in the school library for a few hours before my next class...I can't wait for Thanksgiving break to start so I have a little free time on my hands.

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